lula started preschool last week. as rough of a morning as it was the day she started, i nearly burst into tears when i dropped her off. it's exciting to see your little one growing up, but there's just something very sad about sending them off into the "big world" where they won't need you anymore. sad...and exciting, as i said. it's definitely a mixed emotion type thing.
it was interesting to discover how different the dynamic is when lula is gone. one day after dropping her off at school, diesel and i just say in the playroom for a few minutes kind of staring at each other. it was like, hmmm, what do we do now? our "activities director" was gone!
on instagram recently i labeled diesel "my little tornado". he has been quite a shock to the system after having quiet, independent lula around for two years before he came along. she never got into trouble. i could clean or work around the house and never worried about what she was getting into. diesel is the complete opposite. if he disappears for even a second, i wonder what in the world he's destroying or throwing in the toilet! (his new favorite thing to do!)
but after lula was at school a few mornings in a row, i realized that while he's the tornado, she's the vortex. she creates a swirl of energy and motion and noise around the house that we are all sucked in to. no, we don't cater to her every whim. it's just that there are constant questions, chatter, demands, plans, activities, etc. to address every second she's awake. she creates and consumes most of the energy in our house, and even diesel, wild as he is, spins around his sister and what she's doing.
i realized that unlike lula, diesel doesn't know how to be independent and play on his own because he's never had to before. it's going to be an interesting learning process for him, but a necessary one! although i'm a little nervous for HIM to become the vortex! that would be one wild and scary tornado! an F-5!